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I spent many years of my life pretending（假装）． I told that I was happy with my job， although I knew from the（1） 　　day that it wasn't fit for me． I pretended to agree with everyone around me to avoid the risk of disagreement． After spending so much time hiding my true self， I（2） 　　felt that I'd had enough of that﹣I was really tired of pretending．

I made up my mind（3） 　　pretending． It's easier to pretend than to be truly honest with ourselves，（4） 　　it comes with a heavy price． If I pretend my job is satisfying． I probably won't make the necessary changes to create a new job（5） 　　will bring pleasure to my life． If I pretend to be happy in a relationship when my true（6） 　　clearly say something else， how can I improve my relationship？

These days， I'm always saying what's true for me．When I（7） 　　to work on a new project．I said that I wasn't good at it because I had little experience with it．In the past．I always（8） 　　that fact and felt bad about it for days or even weeks．During parties．I admit（承认）that I hate（9） 　　job and can't wait to leave． In the past． I pretended I liked it just to fit in with everyone else．

Pretending is costly（代价高的）．It is not money we give away but peace of mind，and（10） 　　．I stopped pretending from then on．